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resistant to it as i am, growing up, i realize, entails making choices and letting go of others.
especially when you have limited resources, like, say, money. time. energy.
you can't do everything after all.
For example, I found myself right outside Siam Ocean World - the biggest fish tank in southeast asia.
Only to turn back because I wasn’t willing to spend for the entrance fee, and let go of a long weekend in the country for an hour in there.

However, I remember the Underwater World in Singapore as the highlight of that whoooole month-long trip (which doesn’t speak well either of that trip or of Singapore). But then, even if you can't do everything, you can save them for later.
So i’ll see you soon for sure, fishies.

So I got to thinking about me – fish out of water? bird spreading its wings?
How, when you're unwilling to make a choice, you end up neither here nor there, not anywhere really.
I'm not being fair to the company when I'm in the office but just corresponding with people back home most of the time.
And it isn’t fair to me either, to be wandering these streets wishing I were somewhere else.

Life being a limited resource after all, I chose to spend some of it here. Now i have to let go.